The Time Has Come

I've been freaking out to say the least for the last couple of days. Obviously I knew that J's surgery was coming on, but had no idea how fast. I got a call Monday afternoon that he is scheduled for this Friday. That's fast.

I have been completely tied in knots over the whole anesthesia thing. It's weird-I know, but here's what I've learned thus far: when your child is going thru this, you feel like the only mom on the universe with these feelings. Not sure why...but even though friends of mine have been thru this and tell me it will be fine, I just think, "really? do you understand that I just said anesthesia?" I'm crazy - I know. Once he wakes from the procedure, I know a lot of my anxiety will be gone.

I have also made the decision that I am know blocking negative thoughts from my brain, and I am only going to be positive.....until I slip that is....